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02 December 2012 @ 09:23 am
Reading my old entries on here give me the weirdest feelings. I hope that no one reads this thing, I'm just going to start posting in here again, journal style, So that I can continue to remember life as it happens. My old livejournal was full of mindless posts on love, depression, anxiety, and a boy that didn't feel the same was towards me. Being 16 was tough, haha. The past two years of my life have been a tornado of mistakes that I've made and are now trying to fix. Only in being honest will I continue to grow. I've hurt my bestfriends, and most importantly, I hurt the one person who was always there for me, and loved me unconditionally. I'm not sure if we will ever get back together. How could I possibly blame him though. I often wonder about this thing they call "destiny". ?

I'm going to try to not make my posts on here about love, or lack-there-of, but on myself, and the things that I am accomplishing rather. Going to make a bucket list of things for each month in 2013 of things that I want to accomplish. I'm dedicating the year to myself. I'm going to not search for love from others, instead I'm going to search for love for myself. Going to dominate 2013 and hopefully surprise myself with the things that I will accomplish.

I feel like I'm doing things backwards, which is strange to me. I was in a relationship for almost 8 years with someone, and now I'm single. I never got to experience a single life as a teenager or young adult so this is all new to me, and although it's been months since we've been together, it's still hard to not be socially awkward when meeting new people.

So here's to learning who I am again. Here's to working hard for my future, and here's to me.
Current Location: my grandparents
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: nicki minaj-freedom